lately lots of thoughts came to my mind. I've lived for 28 years, and there is still no direction in me. I realize throughout all these years, everything had been well planned for me that I don't have to worry. Hubby took up all stresses on himself just to provide us with the best and the useless me, just keeps on adding stress to him. I don't know if i had but I feel that i really had. I fear even on the slightest issue. Ever since the time I cried my heart and lung out, every issues that I came across makes me emotional even to a sense that my tear could just fall anytime. My face seemed hardened every time i tried so hard to smile. I miss my smile and self.... I miss it when I was never emotional. What had happened to me? Not only I had lost my direction but also myself. I wants my comfort zone all the time, if anything doesnt looks right to me, I hide, I procrastinate, I starts to avoid, starts to run away from it. what had happened to me? I dun like this me at all. I run through my early posts.. I wish but I know it would never be the same again
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Its a long time since I'd blogged. All the sudden i felt so helpless. Helplessly thinking why I'm always a loner in a group of people. cuz im easily anxious??? cuz im too quiet?? cuz i looks listless?? cuz i cant keep a conversation going?? My life is surrounded by lots of nice people .. though so near but all seems to be getting further and further away from me. I couldn't help being upset ... what to do? I'm still myself, no matter how hard i tried, i can't change anything. It's predestined tht i could never be one of the group no matter where I am.. I am always the last to be thought of. Everynow and then I just wish to be isolated.... im terribly disappointed in me.. yes, me :( Nobody could ever understand how i feel.
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YESTERDAY ..Had my 3rd paper BUT damn paisei la! i faint'd at JE mrt station, on my way to sch. Although faint is nothing new to me but i really dread the feeling of sudden darkness & unknowing how i landed on the ground. The 1st thing that came to my mind was GOSH!! what happen'd?did i fell on someone? did i hit on anything or... Anyway, thanks to all the kindheartred tht applied ointment on me,gave me sweet & helped me to the seat=] It had been quite long time that i didnt faint so wasnt prepared that i would faint ytd tsk tsk! else i would have prepared sweets lols ok wadever.. After exam, went home & tht's yesterday

Today ..Hehs went out intend to study for exam, but no matter how much i tried, nothing goes into my head so ended up slack the whole day again lyk omg* wad is happening to me hmmm sian-ded. Promise, I will put in my best effort tommorrow!!

Sign off here, nytes peeps![=
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Somehow i feel that i dont understand myself at all.. I can firmly tell myself tht is my last decision but in the end i cant keep to it. My heart just ruled over me all the time.. i don know what i should do anymore, just beg my heart to really listen to me this once...i noe i had to get over no matter how hard it gonna be, gimme the strength plsssss...

Hmmm, wasnt ok today.. lots of random thoughts, be it relationship or life.. I suddenly sense a lost of direction-- hate this feeling ok tsk tsk --

Well, didnt blog for quite some time cause am having my papers, so study study and study. 2 papers over alr so now still left with 2... 18th marks the end of stress. Mus rrrreeeeeaaallllyyyyyy have fffuuunnn on this day!

Take care ppl & may all troubles just vanish in e air

Have u changed ?

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Guess Whose bd?
Hi five [= Me & birthday gal



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Heys! Im back from spa & shopping [=

It was newly opened spa at north bridge road opened by a friend of mine. Service & overall exceeded what ive expected in fact.Tried the swedish message + ear candling introduced by her, nice & relaxing.. Loves the steam bath & hmmm so tempted to go once a month .. maybe,hope so..lols.. Hehs anyone wanna go let me know, ive got the 50% discount voucher for message ( including steam ).

After spa, walked around at chinatown with Karin.. bought a dress for new yr? lols maybe .. then to vivo to meet karin Japansese colleague.. dunno called Mitsoshima.. i call him mitsubitshi... hehehs initially cant catch the pronunciation so just give him a new name.. Hmmm he was late for like an hour but perhaps its because he was not feeling well ba so forgiven=]

Hmmm had a hard time communicating cause his English pronunciation is not that clear, but we managed to. Hehs but overall hes quite nice. We went for dinner, chatted & after that cause he is not feeling well so we asked him to go back & rest early..He drop us near a petrol kiosk at telok blangah. Hubby came to fetch us from there & yepp thts my day^^

hehs..nw dreamtime.....so bye!
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Good news! guess wad... ive finished with my assignment, project left with a bit of editing so it's considered done!Hahahs rather stressful past few day, can finally relax now[ = .. but still cant totally relax yet cause the exam not over yet.. gonna take another 3 weeks before im really freed!! Hmmmm.. looking forward ...

Brought Mum for follow up appointment this noon, she looks pessimistic about the whole thing. Hmmm can understand.. the medicine, appointments & options she have to make must have made her real tired.. well, hope she can cheer up soon!

Yepps! Ive a rabbit cage for sale at low price, if anyone interested let me know,Thanks!


I do feel helpless at times....
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Hmmm lots of assignments to complete today..SE & IEC .. sians...

Nothing much today, just that its my 1st day doing pt @ my friend's place. Not bad luh..still have her lil gal & baby to entertain me lols! Well gtg finish my neverending assignment so cya!

In car

Me & lil Noelyn
Hi 5!

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Hi ya! M bk from ECP& Halo Bar. Rather tired now cause i just had a bottle hehs:p
Hmmm will start with ECP..went with hubby & gals dis noon, cycle & played by the beach. I build a sand turtle & Ning build a small triangle sandcastle.. Hahhas! but hers was destroyed by Qi so too bad cant take any picture of it. Had competition of stone throwing...tic tac toe...etc.. lame right? lol!
Well well, Unknowingly, ive taken 50+ pictures & Below are a few..
Had dinner at a HongKong restaurant there, the food was nice! Loves the french toast ( must try!)All of us were too hungry then so the french toast was gone before i can take any pic ...Hahhas in fact all the foods there are nice!
Then hubby send us home.. On the way Lucas called to say there will be a gathering at Halo bar & so i went..
There were 6 of us ..xinyi,alda,lucas,qinghui & I [= yan was blading so couldnt join us..sad!
Ordered a bucket of heineken, chit chat, sing, crap...then the guys surf for 'chio bu' ( pretty gals) lols till 2am, then Xinyi drove us back ..

Fun! but too tired lers.. below are some photos loaded..nytes& bye [=

Hubby & I
My sandturtle
They snatching my toast hahhas!
tug of war w chopstick?
Hungry gal
3 Lil pigs

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Ever since hubby taken start work at late night, my sleeping hr was really pathetic!
Its like only 4-5 hours everyday & now my eye ring getting darker sia. .sobx]':
Blame it on of my imaginations which loves to follow me when I'm alone...
Just hates to be alone!!

Hmmm i feels so blank now, dont know what to do.. I'm missing my kakhis!
Hahhas miss the ktv, clubbing, movie sessions & sentosa.. miss everything
but not work! hahass

Yea, but still i got to do editing of my assignment so better not 'miss' so much [=

I wish you are fine.. will jus ignore till u accept
Forever friend, we'll be...
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Pictures of the month.......

Cool!
Bear's chat
Eli, Me & Jas
mirror lies
@TCC

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